"Fall Apart" by Echo Tide

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Lyrical Creation: © 2025 Echo Tide

Musical Arrangement: © 2025 Echo Tide

All Rights Reserved | Copyright © 2025 Echo Tide

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Hello 😊 So, I wrote these lyrics in August 2024. At the time, I was depressed and no one knew what was going on with me. Eventually, I hit a breaking point and wrote this. Then, after feeling prompted to share it with one of my only friends at the time, I let her read it, which started a conversation. So in part, this song is responsible for me starting to heal. I am a lot better than I was back then, but I share these lyrics now because some of those feelings have really been pulling at me again this past week. Thankfully, I'm not alone this time though.

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I’ve been reeling

With thoughts that they’re all here to fight me

I’ve been feeling

Like there is not one here beside me

When I’m dealing

With all the voices here inside me

I fear behind me

I look behind and all I see is the hostility

Framed as a necessity

To achieve equality

But all I feel is that I’m less important and my fears aren’t real

Look at it historically

Maybe then I’ll recognize

That I am wrong in how I feel

And what I feel means I’m misogynistic

They would say that I’m a bigot

For believing that it’s just as hard to be a man today

I’m forced to look okay

But deep inside, I’m crushed with all these hurtful connotations

Maybe they don’t mean it as it sounds

But that don’t change the thoughts I’m facing

I can’t deal with my own toxins

Nor my self-hating emotions

And the sound of strangers screaming

Only heightens all these feelings

I’m a time-bomb slowly ticking towards an internal explosion

But they don’t even notice

I’ve been reeling

With thoughts that they’re all here to fight me

I’ve been feeling

Like there is not one here beside me

When I’m dealing

With all the voices here inside me

I fear behind me

It’s terrifying

I’m grappling between two very different states of mind

One where I do feel supported and one where I feel like I

Am seen only as a nuisance

Worser still, the enemy

And the voices in this state care not a thing of what I think

And the first one feeds the second

Cause the first one never stays

And the second one is in my hand and never goes away

I could simply set it down

But the voices in my head

Gently whisper all the toxic things they say, while I’m in bed

Now the threat feels immanent

A heightened sense that something bigger

May spring up into the picture and kill me while I’m asleep

I didn’t ask for all this pressure

And I truly don’t believe

They would do the things they’re doing if they knew the pain it brings

I’ve been reeling

With thoughts that they’re all here to fight me

I’ve been feeling

Like there is not one here beside me

When I’m dealing

With all the voices here inside me

I fear behind me

Cause it reminds me

There’s nobody here on my side

And if there are, then they’re too few

At least that’s how it feels right now

It feels like I am bound to lose

I lost my mind a while ago

Again, it seems like no one noticed

I feel stuck here, all alone

Like no one even cares to notice

I need it all to stop!

I need it all to stop!

I need my mind to stop!

I need my backsliding to stop!

I need their words to stop!

I need to know somebody cares!

I just need time to stop!

Catastrophizing needs to stop!

I need my thoughts to stop!

I need it all to stop!!!

I’ve been reeling

With thoughts that they’re all here to fight me

I’ve been feeling

Like there is not one here beside me

When I’m dealing

With all the voices here inside me

I fear behind me

And I start hiding

But I can’t hide this inside no more

I hate me like never before

The last five months have been like hell

My faith was shaken and I fell

Nobody knows where all I’ve been

I’ve been too scared to let them in

And now the words of my close friends

They justify my inward stance

My mind most days is crazy loud

I guess I’ve just been far too proud

To let them in on all my fears

I trained myself to hide for years

And that was fine when I was fine

But now I’m everything but fine

The things I think would help the most

Are all the things that are not close

My faith is low and I’m asleep

This song has gone far from the thing

It first described, but that just shows

The depths of all this hurt I know

I guess the point in all of this

Was just to show the prominence

Of all the problems in my head

In hopes someone would understand

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Lyrical Creation: © 2025 Echo Tide

Musical Arrangement: © 2025 Echo Tide

All Rights Reserved | Copyright © 2025 Echo Tide

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