I said I’m done, I said I’m free
But your name still follows me
In every quiet part of my mind
I swear I leave you all the time

You don’t even call anymore
But I still check my phone like before
It’s embarrassing, I know it’s true
But I still kinda belong to you


And I hate it, hate it, hate it
How I always recreate it
Every ending that I wanted
Turns into something I’m still haunted by


I don’t know why I stay
When you don’t even look my way
I swear I’d walk away
But I’m back again the next day

It’s always the same, the same, the same
Say I’m fine but I’m not okay
I don’t know why I stay
But I stay anyway


My friends all say I need to run
But I just laugh like it’s fun
Like I don’t feel it in my chest
Like I don’t fail every test

Of letting go, of moving on
I say I’m over it, then I’m gone
Right back to where I shouldn’t be
Right back to you controlling me


And I hate it, hate it, hate it
How I always overplay it
Every memory I wanted gone
Keeps turning into a sad love song


I don’t know why I stay
When you don’t even look my way
I swear I’d walk away
But I’m back again the next day

It’s always the same, the same, the same
Say I’m fine but I’m not okay
I don’t know why I stay
But I stay anyway

Bridge
Maybe I like the hurt
Maybe I like the burn
Maybe I don’t wanna learn
What it means to let you go


I don’t know why I stay
Even when you push away
I swear I’d walk away
But I come back every day

It’s always the same, the same, the same
I call it love, but it feels like pain
I don’t know why I stay
But I stay anyway