still holding on (band version)
Alternative rock with cinematic pop production. The track features a breathy female vocal lead with heavy reverb and delay. Instrumentation consists of a clean, palm-muted electric guitar playing eighth-note patterns, a deep sub-bass synth, and a cinematic drum kit with a heavy, gated snare and resonant kick. The arrangement builds from a sparse, atmospheric verse into a high-energy chorus with layered distorted guitar power chords and crashing cymbals. A solo section features a melodic lead guitar with high gain and delay. The tempo is 145 BPM in the key of G minor.
still holding on (band version)
Alternative rock with cinematic pop production. The track features a breathy female vocal lead with heavy reverb and delay. Instrumentation consists of a clean, palm-muted electric guitar playing eighth-note patterns, a deep sub-bass synth, and a cinematic drum kit with a heavy, gated snare and resonant kick. The arrangement builds from a sparse, atmospheric verse into a high-energy chorus with layered distorted guitar power chords and crashing cymbals. A solo section features a melodic lead guitar with high gain and delay. The tempo is 145 BPM in the key of G minor.
Lyrics
i don’t wanna move
don’t wanna breathe too loud
like if i stay still enough
i won’t feel you now
there’s a space in my chest
where you used to stay
and it echoes your name
but it fades… it fades
i still sleep on your side of the bed
like you might come back for the things you left
your hoodie’s still hanging off my chair
like you’re halfway here… but you’re not there
and i tried to hate you just to heal
but every memory still feels too real
i’m stuck in the version of you i knew
before you turned into someone new
and i keep replaying
every word you said
like if i find the moment
i can fix what’s dead
i’d break my bones just to feel you again
crawl through the dark just to know where you’ve been
you took the light but you left me the flame
now i burn every night with your name
i’m screaming out but it sounds like a prayer
talking to someone who’s not even there
if love’s a ghost then i’m already gone
still holding on… still holding on
i heard you laugh through a mutual friend
said you’re doing better, you’re fine again
funny how i’m still on the floor
while you don’t miss me anymore
i tried to wash you out of my skin
but you’re in every place i’ve ever been
and no one touches me quite the same
it’s like my body forgot their name
i hate that i still care
i hate that you don’t
i hate that i’d take you back
even though i won’t
…even though i won’t
...even though i won't
i’d break my bones just to feel you again
bleed out the truth you don’t wanna admit
you said forever like it didn’t mean shit
now i’m stuck in the mess that you left
i’m screaming out till it tears up my lungs
you were the war that i never outrun
if love’s a lie then i played it too long
still holding on… still holding on
i don’t wanna move
don’t wanna breathe too loud
but you’re not here now…
and i feel it now