You started speaking in a slower kind of way

Like every word got lost along the way

You used to finish every thought I had

Now I’m the only one who understands

Your eyes would pass right over mine like glass

Like I was someone from a distant past

I laughed it off, said “you just need some rest”

But something heavy settled in my chest

I felt you slipping through my hands

But you were still right here

I lost you twice

Once when your voice forgot my name

When every memory we made

Just slowly washed away

I tried to pull you back to life

But you were drifting out of sight

I kept pretending you were still the same

While every day you drifted further away

I held on tighter every time it broke

Like love alone could fix what I can’t control

I watched you fade in front of my eyes

I lost you twice

The room was filled with unfamiliar sounds

Machines where laughter used to hang around

A plastic band wrapped tightly round your wrist

Like proof of something we could not resist

You looked at me like I was hard to place

Like you were searching for a missing face

And in that moment something in me knew

I wasn’t losing time, I’m losing you

I called your name into the quiet

But it never reached you

I lost you twice

Once when your world erased my face

When every piece I couldn’t replace

Just vanished into space

I stayed while everything declined

And watched you leave me far behind

I learned to speak in ways you’d recognize

To fit inside the fragments of your mind

I turned our history into simple lines

Hoping somehow you’d read between the signs

But every version of you I could find

Still led me back to:

I lost you twice

The final night was quieter than fear

No alarms left ringing in my ears

Your hand was lighter resting into mine

Like you had let go long before that time

I didn’t beg for you to stay again

I’d said goodbye a thousand times back then

And when the silence finally filled the room

It felt like something I already knew

Which one was worse, I still can’t decide

Losing you slowly or all at once that night

Was it the moment that you forgot my face

Or when your heart just quietly slipped away

I’m left with echoes I cannot erase

A double loss I carry every day

Now every empty space you left

Feels louder than your voice

I lost you twice

Once when I watched you disappear

Piece by piece you weren’t still here

Though you were standing near

And then the final breath you took

Closed every unfinished book

I lost you twice

Now every corner holds a trace

Of who you were before it changed

I speak your name into the night

And wait for something to reply

But all that answers me inside is:

I lost you twice

I lost you twice