[clean production]
M.A.D.O.K. to the A.

[Verse 1]
Always been a smart girl
We can tell
Put a brave face on
Show and tell
How I keep the lights on
How I raise my brother and my son
What you call it, pressure or a diamond?
Had to make it, didn't have an option
You could never call me lazy
I got two little mouths to feed
I can't afford to be sleepin' on me

[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah, that's the reason I get so loud
'Cause no one came when I cried quietly
Mm, I was taught how to disappear
Oh, I was taught how to disappear

[Chorus]
So if you can't find me, just know it's in my blood
If I stop replying, it's 'cause my mama taught me how to clean
My daddy taught me how to lie
Told me how to make you think that I was nice
Told me how to leave my body
Never let me leave his side
Still don't know what it's like to be his type
Taught me how to disappear
Taught me how to disappear

[Verse 2]
Wish I had a dad who chose me over bottles
Gave me good advice, kept me outta trouble
Someone I could count on, but you taught me how to disappear
I could've been a daddy's girl
You just don't have a clue
Wouldn't that be funny? Just a chip off of you
Now I raise your son, he thinks I'm his mom
He ain't gotta know the truth
I grew up in a war zone
Was I born a whore? No
But I had to make sure that you saw me
You don't see me, I get loud
'Cause when I cried, no one came
So I can't help but scream
The apple don't fall far from the tree
And maybe you were wrong, but you were the best example
I'm sorry that I had to be your daughter's greatest battle
You're the first man that ever broke my heart
Is that why I let them break it too?
Now I raise your son, he thinks I'm his mom
He ain't gotta know the truth

[Chorus]
So if you can't find me, just know it's in my blood
If I stop replying, it's 'cause my mama taught me how to clean
My daddy taught me how to lie
Told me how to make you think that I was nice
Told me how to leave my body
Never let me leave his side
Still don't know what it's like to be his type
Taught me how to disappear
Taught me how to disappear

[Verse 3]
That's my karma, must've been a bad b!tch in my last life
All I ever do is get my act right
I can see the end in my past life
I can feel the fear from my past life
I can feel the fear
So I stay busy, got a bad memory
So I stay dizzy, but it still gets to me
I can see it so clear

[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah, that's the reason I get so loud
'Cause no one came when I cried quietly
Mm, I was taught how to disappear
Oh, I was taught how to disappear

[Chorus]
So if you can't find me, just know it's in my blood
If I stop replying, it's 'cause my mama taught me how to clean
My daddy taught me how to lie
Told me how to make you think that I was nice
Told me how to leave my body
Never let me leave his side
Still don't know what it's like to be his type
Taught me how to disappear
Taught me how to disappear