Valentine’s lights outside my window
But my room stays quiet and numb
I learned to survive in the silence
Where love comes… and then runs


Right now I’m sinking low
I need to move slow, take my time
I’m not broken, I’m just tired
Of watching connections die


Eight months buried under goodbye
Two hopes fell, one almost stayed
I never asked for forever
Just a reason not to fade

I didn’t cage, I didn’t bend them
Didn’t ask them to change their skin
I showed my heart with open hands
And still… they vanished again


It could’ve saved me
It could’ve held me tight
It wasn’t all imagination
It was real — I was alive


The connection
The safety
That feeling: “Here I can be me”
But I inject the anesthesia
So no one mistakes my sensitivity

For weakness…
No, never weakness


I’m a homebound soul in a locked routine
Exclusive without choosing to be
A heart preserved behind glass
Waiting for someone brave to see

At night I whisper soft prayers
To gods, to stars, to the void
Asking for presence, not promises
Just someone who won’t avoid


If I stay imprisoned
Would you still choose me the same?
If my hands shake while I love you
Would you still say my name?

I cry for everyone
And somehow… for no one at all
I numb my pulse so I won’t beg
I stand here quiet… against the fall


The connection
The safety
That place where I don’t have to hide
I slow my heart, apply anesthesia
But my love was never a crime

Don’t confuse my gentleness
With something easy to break
I’m still here, still breathing
Still human… still awake


Valentine’s passes like a ghost
I remain, learning to wait
If love finds me in these chains
I hope it stays…
I hope it stays