Moka | I Dont Want To Be Here
Minimalist piano ballad with soft felt piano, sustaining lush chords, and a low ambient pad for emotional depth. Raw, melismatic female vocals gently stretch over long sustained notes. Cinematic pop ballad meets alt R&B and K-Drama elements for a poignant, ethereal texture.
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Moka | I Dont Want To Be Here
Minimalist piano ballad with soft felt piano, sustaining lush chords, and a low ambient pad for emotional depth. Raw, melismatic female vocals gently stretch over long sustained notes. Cinematic pop ballad meets alt R&B and K-Drama elements for a poignant, ethereal texture.
Creator: RΛCHΞYRelease Date: May 11, 2025
Lyrics
I don’t wanna be here
(I don’t wanna be here)
I don’t wanna be here
Don't make me be here
I don’t wanna be here / I’m rotting in place
Clock hands bleeding / ticking like blame
Stacked-up calls like voices in my head
Inbox full of messages I never read
Sleep-deprived, wired dead inside
Too numb to fake, too tired to hide
My eyes are open but I'm not awake
I’m a body on repeat / I break and break and break
I’m not lazy / I’m decaying
In this chair, in this cage
Every second, every breath / just pain I can't explain
Let it burn me, let me fall
I was gone before it all
And I don’t wanna be here
Don’t make me be here
Don’t...
I stare at the screen / like it'll save me
But the blinking line just waits
Deadlines pile like coffins
And I can't even lift my name
I’m drowning in all of it/ can’t scream / can’t move
Losing to the silence / nothing left to prove
I’m breaking in the background / fading in the glare
I don’t want to be here
Coffee’s cold, but I still drink it /
Like maybe it’ll fill the space /
I stare out through the window /
While the world keeps changing pace /
Unread messages stack higher /
I pretend they’re not for me /
Put on my headset / say “I’m fine” /
Then mute and try to breathe /
Tried to write a single sentence /
But the words all disappear /
I type, delete, then walk away /
Forget why I was here /
Everyone says “just push through it” /
But they’ve never felt this way /
I’m not lazy / I’m just fading /
More and more each day
I’m drowning in all of it / can’t scream / can’t move
Losing to the silence / nothing left to prove
I used to fake a smile / now I don’t even try
There’s nothing left to hold me
And no one asks me why
unseen / unheard
Buried in the static / slipping without words
I don’t want to be here / I don’t know who I am
I can’t keep pretending
I still give a damn
i dont want to be here
The screen goes black / I don’t log out
Just let it all decay
They’ll ask tomorrow where I’ve been
But I was gone yesterday
i dont want to be here
RΛCHΞY | @rachey13x
Lyrics: © 2025 Rachey.
Music and Arrangement: © 2025 Rachey.
© 2025 Rachey. All rights reserved.
💬 Connect with RΛCHΞY:
Find all my links here: https://arco.so/rachey13x/
(I don’t wanna be here)
I don’t wanna be here
Don't make me be here
I don’t wanna be here / I’m rotting in place
Clock hands bleeding / ticking like blame
Stacked-up calls like voices in my head
Inbox full of messages I never read
Sleep-deprived, wired dead inside
Too numb to fake, too tired to hide
My eyes are open but I'm not awake
I’m a body on repeat / I break and break and break
I’m not lazy / I’m decaying
In this chair, in this cage
Every second, every breath / just pain I can't explain
Let it burn me, let me fall
I was gone before it all
And I don’t wanna be here
Don’t make me be here
Don’t...
I stare at the screen / like it'll save me
But the blinking line just waits
Deadlines pile like coffins
And I can't even lift my name
I’m drowning in all of it/ can’t scream / can’t move
Losing to the silence / nothing left to prove
I’m breaking in the background / fading in the glare
I don’t want to be here
Coffee’s cold, but I still drink it /
Like maybe it’ll fill the space /
I stare out through the window /
While the world keeps changing pace /
Unread messages stack higher /
I pretend they’re not for me /
Put on my headset / say “I’m fine” /
Then mute and try to breathe /
Tried to write a single sentence /
But the words all disappear /
I type, delete, then walk away /
Forget why I was here /
Everyone says “just push through it” /
But they’ve never felt this way /
I’m not lazy / I’m just fading /
More and more each day
I’m drowning in all of it / can’t scream / can’t move
Losing to the silence / nothing left to prove
I used to fake a smile / now I don’t even try
There’s nothing left to hold me
And no one asks me why
unseen / unheard
Buried in the static / slipping without words
I don’t want to be here / I don’t know who I am
I can’t keep pretending
I still give a damn
i dont want to be here
The screen goes black / I don’t log out
Just let it all decay
They’ll ask tomorrow where I’ve been
But I was gone yesterday
i dont want to be here
RΛCHΞY | @rachey13x
Lyrics: © 2025 Rachey.
Music and Arrangement: © 2025 Rachey.
© 2025 Rachey. All rights reserved.
💬 Connect with RΛCHΞY:
Find all my links here: https://arco.so/rachey13x/