I was nine when everything split in two
No one explained, just told me where to go
Different doors, none of them felt like home
And I think that’s when I started to roam

New school and a quieter me
Everybody talking, but not to me
Tried to blend in, but it all went wrong
Got pushed around like I don’t belong


Home didn’t feel like somewhere safe
Blame came easy, no matter the case
Some nights left bruises I tried to hide
So I learned to keep it all inside

Every word I said got turned around
Somehow it was always my fault
Even when I didn’t do a thing
I carried blame for everything


I was just a kid, I didn’t belong
Always felt like something was wrong
So I walked those streets with nowhere to go
Just trying to find some space to breathe

Every night I stayed out way too long
Didn’t feel right going back home
If love was there, it stayed out of reach
Like something no one gave to me


Moved again, thought this time might work
Different place, but I felt the same
Hoping things would finally change
But I still felt out of place

New school, same old me
People still not talking to me
Kept my distance, stayed alone
Like I didn’t belong anywhere I'd go

Stayed in my room, didn’t go outside
Started skipping school, a part of me died

He didn’t get me, I could see it in his face
Like he was slowly losing faith

Therapy rooms, staring at the floor
Trying to explain what I felt before
But how do you say you’re already lost
When you’re still that young, paying that cost?


I was just a kid, I didn’t belong
Always felt like something was wrong
So I stayed out late with nowhere to be
Just trying to find some space to breathe

Every night I stayed out way too long
Couldn’t bring myself to go back home
If love was there, it stayed out of reach
Like something no one gave to me


Heard things I wish I never knew
Like being somewhere else was better for you
It never happened, but it didn’t have to
Just knowing that was enough to break me

Stayed out late, just to avoid
Every place I once called home
No direction, nowhere to be
Just trying to feel something in me



What kind of parent stops wanting you?



I was just a kid, I didn’t belong
Always felt like something was wrong
Spent all those nights with nowhere to be
Just trying to find some space to breathe

Too young to carry all that weight
Too small to fight, too hurt to stay
And it stayed with me all this time
Like I wasn’t who they wanted me to be

Every night I stayed out way too long
Never felt right going back home
If love was there, it stayed out of reach
Like something never meant for me

But I’m still here in spite of everything


I made it past what I thought I wouldn’t
Still not where I thought I’d be
But I’m still here…