Woke up this morning

Sadness laying next to me

She acts like she’s healing

But she’s just reopening memories

Told her “get the hell out” — she laughed

Said, “Baby, I live here rent-free”

She brought her little first-aid kit

But it feels like surgery

Heavy chest, throat tight

Tears climbing up quietly

Damn…

Been years since they visited me

She’s good at her job

Knows every crack in my armor

Maybe I’ll write this song in English

Maybe it’ll hurt a little softer

Maybe if I don’t fully understand it

It won’t fully understand me

Out here success is popularity

So I’m already losing, apparently

They say “tell your secrets — that’s the key”

Even if it don’t pay the lease

If you don’t like sad songs

You could’ve read before you clicked on me

Nobody forced you to stay

But everybody got something to say

They want me fitting in a square

But I’ve always been round

They say I don’t belong anywhere

But they never let me be found

Hearts in the comments, screens lighting up

Still feel alone in a crowded room

The worst thing ain’t dying alone

It’s being loved — and still feeling removed

Crazy winters, endless nights

This déjà vu won’t let me breathe

Watching myself from the outside

Like I’m not the one living me

If I was really who I am

Would I still be standing here?

If I showed up without a mask

Would they disappear?

Humans are strange

We connect through glass and pixels

Say “I’m good” with a smiley face

While falling apart a little

Yeah…

Weird world.

Outro]

Round in a square world…

Trying not to break the corners…

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Original lyrics by Lila

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