Your presence haunts me every single night
Your absence scourges my days with blight
Memories of your scent
Memories of your sight
A weight I can't bear, insanity’s delight

And I keep blaming myself
Filling my heart with hatred
I know it’s wrong, but I can’t escape it
And I…
Can’t keep living this way
The pain, unforgiving
The past is killing me slowly, like a deathstalker’s sting
I hate you for leaving
Hate who I’ve become
I just can’t keep going
Don’t know how I can hold on...
..Don’t know how to hold on

Every nightmare's a scene I can’t unsee
Replaying the sickness that took you from me
I searched for answers
I begged for a cure
But every failure I was forced to endure

And I keep blaming myself
Filling my heart with hatred
I know it’s wrong, but I can’t escape it
And I...
Can’t keep living this way
The pain, unforgiving
The past is killing me slowly, like a deathstalker’s sting
I hate you for leaving
Hate who I’ve become
I just can’t keep going
Don’t know how I can hold on...
..Don’t know how to hold on

I can’t hold on!
Can I rewind the clock?
Or can I make the world stop?
I can’t fucking hold on!
If I had just known what to do
(I didn’t know)
Had I found a way to save you
(I’d watch you grow)
The guilt weighs heavy
It never leaves
It’s dragging me deeper
Destroying me

And I keep blaming myself
Filling my heart with hatred
I know it’s wrong, but I can’t escape it
And I…
Can’t keep living this way
The pain, unforgiving
The past is killing me slowly, like a deathstalker’s sting
I hate you for leaving
Hate who I’ve become
I just can’t keep going
Don’t know how I can hold on...
..Don’t know how to hold on